I have decided to start a new blog but I would still be keeping this old blog :) a blog is mend to last forever and never be forgotten. so I've link the new one to the old one.

Please visit my new blog at: www.chengyouzhi.blogspot.com

Seeya there :)

THE END:11:47 PM


today mechanics tutor came in and showed us our grades for mechanics. i got a F grade which is a failed grade. oh my. I knew i didn't do well, but i didn't expect to fail. I'm disappointed in myself. I'm not used to getting this kind of results. I'm not that kind of dude that fails his test poly.

I played too much, always day dreaming and wasting precious time. kick me please..

When i wrote the previous post yesterday, the thought of friends came into my mind. Your presence make me feel awkward all day, your smirk irritates me, i would have stabbed you in the heart if i would not be given a death sentence. yes, you were a good friend, we have common topics, we think alike, thought i understand no one is perfect i just can't accept your ignorance and arrogance. you're just a thorn in my eye.

IT's good to know that some kind souls are in my class, i'm hoping to know them better, i believe they make good life long buddies :) recently i realized that we've got to put in time and genuine care and concern for a friendship to work out. It's interesting to know that people value what you care about them and not just things you say.

Sometimes I learn things the hard way, work hard You Zhi..

THE END:4:17 PM


So many months have pass, so many things have happened, be it good or bad, it has all happened already..

Some highlights or rather lowlights:

School:

Ever since school started for year two, i haven't been really doing any studying or revision. why so? perhaps i've lost my interest? distractions here and there. common tests came unprepared and i really need to buck up for the semestral exams. i hope i will..

I'm starting to doubt myself if i'm a good friend to others, maybe it's my insecurity but i have the fear of having no friends at some point of my life. I have to accept that friends come and go. And many dont deserve my time at all. that's life.

Family:

You know sometimes dad don't understand me and there were plenty of quarrels (as usual), peace don't really last long. quarrels were really heated and i lost control of myself on several occasions and yelled in their faces. sometimes i thought i need counseling. quarrels leave me confused and frustrated. you know the feeling of everyone is against you?

Highlights:

Perhaps the only good thing that happened in the months was my first kart race. I won it. Well, at least i drove better than the 29 other drivers. The win means a lot to me because i'm serious in doing it really well. Apart from getting a medal, i'm getting a pair of racing gloves :)




It seems like more bad things happened than good things.. i need something to vent out my stress, my thoughts, the confusions, the mess inside me. give me a punching bag.




I don't know what you think of me, but I'm sincere and I know you deserve my love :)

Signing off.

THE END:9:40 PM


I hate everyday routine, it just make me very very sick. Sometimes i just can't think of what I'm doing this for. For future? Yea maybe. I'm not doing what i like, and I don't like what I'm doing. i really hope someone can come into my life to make things better. I need a change in my life.

THE END:3:07 PM


how i wished i'm in a class that people care..people that care for your feelings. unfortunately i'm not in that kind of class. i'm venting my frustation here..

yes i know i'm stuck up at times, but i know my limits. yes we all come from different backgrounds, we were raised up differently, we all have differences but it doesnt mean we can't get along.

it isn't right to show your emotions and mood at me, you two dont even bother to explain anything. are you against me??

or maybe you like me with a mask on? i would have ignored you if i don't need you. i have left with no choice but to entertain you. of course i'm wise enough to know this.

i dont suffer in silence you know, i dont suffer when i put my mask on everyday, in fact i see you suffer without you knowing - you're cheated by my pretty mask.

okay i'm not being mean here, but i'm doing justice to myself and you two. you know who you are,i really hope you're reading this.

anyway, i shall not waste anymore time on such cowards. please be dead and gone in my life.

P.S i'm feeling much better after typing all out here :)

THE END:9:06 PM


1 down, 3 more papers to go. i really cant wait for exams to end, seriously i just wanna do nothing. makes no sense but that's what i want to do, okay let's see what i'll be doing after exams,

1) working at march IT show and subsequent poly's roadshow
2) do my flying every weekend (practice for competition in june - 3DX)
3) Jog, swim and gym
4) catch F1 action online (i just downloaded sopcast, eagerly waiting for F1 season to start)
5) Sleep late everyday!
6) go out with friends

Okay, looks like i won't be doing nothing after exams.

Anyway, i received a valentine/chinese new year card from a special friend :)

okay, that's all for now seeya.

THE END:1:01 PM


somethings have been going through my mind and so i have decided to blog it out here. Okay firstly, i went to the airshow last saturday, as always every time i go i get roasted (sunburnt), i wasnt the worst one at least. my friends looked like lobsters! Airshow was similiar to the 2008 one, they just dont have new products everyday like in a supermarket. nevertheless, i still enjoy my time there. you have to have interest and passion to appreciate aviation.

yesterday i went to cut hair, and i did something really redundant to my hair. the process is called twisting. basically, it's easier to style my hair now. okay i completely regretted doing it, i never gonna do it again. why? firstly, it costs 90 bucks for that thing, secondly, it affects my hair (it's very dry) and sculp, thirdly, no point doing it anyway. it makes me wonder how easy the saloon are earning the tais tais's money and those aunties's money.

Next, okay i've been clearing some junk in my house. not junk actually, bikes and oto trimax. i sold them on ebay, it was really easy to get buyers there. that leads me to think of using ebay as a tool to sell things. well, sell things and make profits. i'm thinking of that. There's no other places easier to market your products. although i've always wanted to be a pilot, business has always been in my mind all the time. i can be flying full time and do business as part time. it can be done.

okay chinese new year is just 4 days away, totally in chinese new year mood now, no mood to study for the exams -.- and the exams are just right after chinese new year, how wise it is to schedule it right after cny?? anyway i just want to nail all those 3 papers, how hard can it get.

Okay let's talk about what i wanna do after the exams - after 1st march. my last paper falls on the first of march. okay, i wanna get myself a go kart, living the dreams of a racing driver! okay enough of all the expensive hobbies(gosh i have so little money, but yet so many hobbies) i'm gonna earn some serious money!

okay, that's all for now. Seeya! Happy Cheena New Year!

THE END:7:54 PM