I have decided to start a new blog but I would still be keeping this old blog :) a blog is mend to last forever and never be forgotten. so I've link the new one to the old one.

Please visit my new blog at: www.chengyouzhi.blogspot.com

Seeya there :)

THE END:11:47 PM


today mechanics tutor came in and showed us our grades for mechanics. i got a F grade which is a failed grade. oh my. I knew i didn't do well, but i didn't expect to fail. I'm disappointed in myself. I'm not used to getting this kind of results. I'm not that kind of dude that fails his test poly.

I played too much, always day dreaming and wasting precious time. kick me please..

When i wrote the previous post yesterday, the thought of friends came into my mind. Your presence make me feel awkward all day, your smirk irritates me, i would have stabbed you in the heart if i would not be given a death sentence. yes, you were a good friend, we have common topics, we think alike, thought i understand no one is perfect i just can't accept your ignorance and arrogance. you're just a thorn in my eye.

IT's good to know that some kind souls are in my class, i'm hoping to know them better, i believe they make good life long buddies :) recently i realized that we've got to put in time and genuine care and concern for a friendship to work out. It's interesting to know that people value what you care about them and not just things you say.

Sometimes I learn things the hard way, work hard You Zhi..

THE END:4:17 PM


So many months have pass, so many things have happened, be it good or bad, it has all happened already..

Some highlights or rather lowlights:

School:

Ever since school started for year two, i haven't been really doing any studying or revision. why so? perhaps i've lost my interest? distractions here and there. common tests came unprepared and i really need to buck up for the semestral exams. i hope i will..

I'm starting to doubt myself if i'm a good friend to others, maybe it's my insecurity but i have the fear of having no friends at some point of my life. I have to accept that friends come and go. And many dont deserve my time at all. that's life.

Family:

You know sometimes dad don't understand me and there were plenty of quarrels (as usual), peace don't really last long. quarrels were really heated and i lost control of myself on several occasions and yelled in their faces. sometimes i thought i need counseling. quarrels leave me confused and frustrated. you know the feeling of everyone is against you?

Highlights:

Perhaps the only good thing that happened in the months was my first kart race. I won it. Well, at least i drove better than the 29 other drivers. The win means a lot to me because i'm serious in doing it really well. Apart from getting a medal, i'm getting a pair of racing gloves :)




It seems like more bad things happened than good things.. i need something to vent out my stress, my thoughts, the confusions, the mess inside me. give me a punching bag.




I don't know what you think of me, but I'm sincere and I know you deserve my love :)

Signing off.

THE END:9:40 PM